games of chance,

games with bones,

games with hands.

she danced to find the light.

the light shifts off for one.

the lights shifts on for someone else.

sister ruth wanted to leave the sisterhood.  her passion was transferred to another.

the silent old mystic in the himalayas.  sister clodagh  feared him.

her eyes over the horizon.

a nun.  opening and closing

i don't know sprezzatura.  it is the confusion of the retina that concerns me.

approach arthur?

more of a sprezzatura

would you desire 

sometimes lana turner,

really is, lana turner.

the mind plays tricks with the eyes sometimes.

you can touch it!  it is a shiny object.  it flakes, exposing the transparent.

reflections are mirages.  at best a bad rough sketch.  

i don't care what they say!

mirrors are poor tools for self-revelation.

self-reflections are confusing to the senses.

debby marsh lived in a man's world too.

but she always loved the mirror.

she never got a fair shake.  lucy lived in a man's world.

lucy wanted another life.  she tried a few others.

there was something missing.  absent.  a thing she could not grasp.  

she was as pretty as a cocktail glass and just as used.

i loved her face when she looked  me in the eyes.   i could see the girl, long gone.

i never saw lucy chapman in the daylight.  there was nothing but night for her.

i felt so guilty after your death.  i didn't have it in me.  i'm not a killer.

you should have killed the scum when you had the chance.  he asked you to kill him.

guys like vince stone want to die.  the present is everything.

every single day goes down as an attempted suicide.

i was leery of lee marvin.  he knew glenn ford.  i think he thought that i was suffering from some syndrome.

she said that she went out with marvin the night before.  he was the perfect gentleman.

i think i would have taken care of her for a bit.  and then i would have probably killed her.  do
you remember the girl in the back?  we talked to her that day.

i was looking at our empty house.  i felt vulnerable. 

if i wasn't around, and she didn't die, would you have ended up with her?

i felt sorry for her when she was debby marsh.  she was dangerous but decent.

gloria grahame almost got to you.  she got her death scene at the end.

i never got over you in that film.  lang was beginning to bother me at that time.  the time of your death.

ford never knew a thing.  neither did brando.

you played the part well.  so did i.

i called myself jocelyn in those days.

you were glenn.

i had a good part.

until i was blown to pieces.

after your fourth shock.  after we see the house.  sometimes we were very good.

i am your ghost mistress.  you will never leave me.