May 30, 2012

he said that he was only sending her ones that would not upset her.

he was trying to rid himself of these pictures of guns.

May 29, 2012

serios told her that he was protecting her.  he told her

May 28, 2012

these images that he was sending her were somehow subdued.

she asked serios if he was being gentle with her.  it seemed as though

May 27, 2012

this man has a determined look.  he has a nice face.  he is not threatening.

belmondo with a cigarette and a pistol driving a car.

and these images that serios sent to her were not unpleasant.

May 26, 2012

 her father was a gunsmith, but she had grown to be indifferent to them.

they were snapshots with guns.  she loathed guns since she knew their true nature. 

these were not the violent and alcoholic visions that she would have expected.

she thought that every time serios touched her he would put an image into her mind.

they were not entirely hers.  she had no obsession with guns.

May 25, 2012

these images that were appearing every night were not hers.

planting his violent, alcoholic visions on her mind.

May 22, 2012

she loathed firearms.  she was convinced that serios was

she saw pictures of herself reaching for a gun.

his mean, violent visions shot straight to her head.

May 19, 2012

she informed ted that she was leaving him.

she could not stop him from having visions.

and she could not help him.

to his character in the lost weekend.  but ted suffered from hallucinations,

nothing.  serios knew ray milland in the 1940s and 1950s and ted always related

May 18, 2012

when he was sober he could only produce whites and blacks...in other words,

mr. serios would drink anything in sight in order to create.

May 17, 2012

and it almost sent her over the edge.

she left him for her own good.  he was insane.

she took this photograph of serios on their last day together.

her affair with serios lasted around nine months.

May 16, 2012

mr. serios was not a shadow of a man like harry.

May 15, 2012

she knew that he was a charlatan and a drunk.  but she loved him anyway.

May 14, 2012

with his eyes made a great impression on her.

and there were others.  ted serios who could take pictures

May 13, 2012

she thinks that she remembers them from her childhhood.

where did these men come from?  why does she think about them now?

May 12, 2012

see them for what they really were.

just as she, would finally,

she was the unreachable one.  they would see her pictures in their mind,

but she, too, was one of their hallucinations now.

she loved these men at different stages of her life.