the still passenger sits on a train, on the window seat, in the middle of a long car. these are the days when there were drive-in movie theaters dotted across the landscape. at dusk, the images on the screen appear off in the distance. the images presented here are those which are glimpsed, the ones that still her thoughts. the train rolls along. the landscape seems to move, but doesn't. the still passenger sits alone with her snapshots in her mind. she's filling in the spaces.
October 19, 2014
knock on the door. you've been given the wrong address before.
shake hands with the man. listen to his story.
don't worry. she is just not back yet.
it is just as well. you are not ready for her.
October 18, 2014
hold the picture by the edges. there is too much to see.
hold the ground. it is your ground. even if you have fallen.
hold the head of your comrade. they need to know you care.
hold your gloved hand. you have protected it from the cold.
hold the wall. you are reaching up. you are optimistic.
hold your love. hold their head. hair. just the weight is enough.
hold the donkey's head. feel it breathe. think.
October 15, 2014
i could hardly see out the window. it was foggy. the car had stopped.
there were a few warblers on the ground.
a red fox that jumped in the middle of his run.
i stayed there all night.
it was in the middle of a forest. it was hard to see a point to it.
October 14, 2014
take last night. i danced for chantal.
she watched me prance around with a top hat.
we were having so much fun.
suddenly it occurred to me.
October 13, 2014
wait! is this
where
god is?
no. this is not the place. god is not here. he must be elsewhere.
i would guess we are ghostly. chantal would know.
changing faces must be part of the job.
October 12, 2014
everyone is allowed a past.
the time when our heads and hearts
together formed a cult of four.
oh that never happened.
we wanted to hold each other's hands forever. .
we wanted to leave the territory.
we wanted to get to the end.
we made a leap of (to) faith.
(but no we don't do that)
we were lucky i guess.
luck has always been on our side.
October 11, 2014
it was a blue evening when we left.
i felt that the background was closer to me.
it was blue when we arrived.
i was mixing with the surroundings.
that is what i remember. blue.
i had melted into the blue, into the light. but so had you.
i threw your hat up into the air.
i did a jig.
i put my trust in love. i mistrust everything else.
my acquaintances here seem alien to me.
i have a harder time adjusting to my surroundings.
October 9, 2014
arthur, why do you think that you have to hide? vienna. 1948.
